Wednesday Jitters

     Due to this COVID-19 virus, has anyone else experienced anxiety for others who might get it and end up giving themselves a panic attack? Or is that just me?

     I've been feeling like this for the past week, once my COVID-19 anxiety for me hasn't "passed" but more like subsided. I feel like this when I notice small things about my mom when she's so burnt out from work and then her work has her go to the "field" because she is an essential work for a gas company. However, her health and her age is what worries me, one wrong move on my mom's part from being in the desert heat where she touche her face or touches something contaminated is all it takes, TERRIFIES me. I worry about my mom a lot and I am the closest to her and I love my mom dearly but I worry because sometimes she can be a little bit careless not on purpose but I'm not her mother, so does it give me the right to be this worrisome as her daughter? 

    Maybe you feel this overwhelming anxiety for someone you know? You care and worry and try to chase away the thoughts of he/she/them not being in your life and worse, because of this damn virus if someone were to pass (may God forbid, please) thinking of the new protocols where someone has to die alone is horrible. So many people are being robbed of their mourning and the grief becomes unbearable. I worry about people, and I certainly don't want to see or hear about anyone else dying because it hurts too much. Maybe, some people are ready to die and look death in the eyes and fear nothing. Whereas, I fear a lot because I'm not ready to let go and it hurts to think about it. 

    Does anyone else feel this way? What's your process to get through this pandemic? 

    My first step, remember the happy times and focus on a future where people are safe, healthy and happy... It seems like an overreaching statement but it keeps me positive that there's more to life and it's going to be worth living for and this has to come to an end. Hopefully, sooner rather than later. Stay home and keep to healthy methods. I believe in you.